Moon Reader

Because we are not acquainted with each other enough, 
we need to treat everything heartedly. Even there are so many journals and papers every week; 
if I didn’t pay some time on them, I would not read them any more. 
Surely, what is most practical is to pass all semesters and to get content grades. 
However, I think that you can’t treat your members and friends in the same way. 
It is always said to keep a good relationship, but many, in fact, damage theirs gradually with carelessness. 
This week I heard someone say that you are the leader and we are the followers. 
What a steadfast accent! If you had behaved that way, you shouldn’t have said that arbitrarily. 
Then, the rest of the semester means nothing for the group of us.

The first week of beginning term was really “fabulous.”
All mates of finance were familiar with this embarrassing situation to dividing into groups for our teamwork cause of mature age we had.
Our term began on this Wednesday, in addition of Moon Festival, and there was a required course on Mondays we had never taken.
Even, we didn’t know who the teacher is.
(It seemed that he or she didn’t want to have a make-up class for the Monday one. However, my schedule are full of reading materials.)

引用：http://blog.sina.com.cn/s/blog_4c69db7d01000bhv.html
我們在長大的過程當中，藉由尋覓偶像、消耗偶像，來辨別自己的真面目、來尋求活下去的熱量。
我們像不斷蛻皮、越長越大的蛇，而偶像呢，只是一個又一個供蛇來磨蹭、足以幫著幼蛇把舊皮蹭下來的，石頭或者樹幹罷了。
蛇蛻下來的殘破舊皮，黏在被棄的石頭或者樹幹上，隨風晃動著，是很殘酷的景象。就像搬家時，抽屜深處總會有幾個偶像簽給我們的簽名照，被毫不留情地清理丟掉。
成長很花力氣，用完了的垃圾，不太能一一呵護保存。

Most of college term begins tomorrow.
Though I still have one week off,
I will gradually collect my passion and faith standing by me.
Everytime, I feel regretted of my wishes that should have been complete among my resolution,
but most of my works had been done and I can reset new goals for my coming future.

在探視父親、離開醫院之後
便前往中山女高對面的｢肥牛｣
老實說，我一點都不喜歡燒烤店
畢竟還要花錢自己烤肉
然後應付著兩個小時的急迫

原本在我面前阻擋壞東西的高牆
不知何時，漸漸地轉為我身後的支柱
當我可以面對一切、成為自己的時候
我從未想像過自己會立即承接下來身邊的所有
超出我個體以外的其他事物

如果這是顛覆邏輯的說法
是因為比較悲觀嗎?
打斷了原有的計畫，要感謝的，是這個牛步龜速的颱風
還是你又忘記了說好的約定
反正大晴天的日子總是比較多
偶爾留點雨天給像我這樣異常的人類吧...
Bye-bye to 瑪琉、葉子、津姐等葵眾
過去的日子，謝謝你們的照顧
明日隔山岳，世事兩茫茫......感覺有點悲情，有些不捨
至少讓我自己穩定好的時候，再回來找你們，好嗎?

1. 天天鍛鍊，感謝一下Karen Mok的單曲
2. 把精神和思考留給值得的人
3. To give what I think best to others but not to give what they usually demand.
4. 朝向計畫中的目標邁進
5. 繼續我的小心眼，斟酌有道德的信仰

五短身材不能說矮，要說vertically challenged.
胖也不能直說fat，要用horizontally challenged.
其貌不揚，不說ugly，要說facially challenged.
電腦白痴的說法太傷人，就用technically challenged.
單身卻還沒有個伴，很難啟齒，只好說romantically challenged.
類似的說法，發展的很過火，但卻是很好用的形容詞，
如果說現在的自己，似乎是challenge challenged.
I neeed more courage and plans to turn on my motivation of striving.

可以蹉跎的日子還有一個月
重新檢視自己在最熱的日子完成的工作
那種慵懶似乎比梅雨季節還要優雅些
打點了房間的行李
在行事曆上劃掉的格子裏做了記號
NYT的周報總會不想讀完最後一頁
統計學和經濟學比手邊厚實的長篇小說還要難以入眼
少跑的操場也要去用雙腳踏回來
還沒經過的地方也找機會去拜訪一下
沒有一個暑假，可以曾經漫長過，人呢？
小記：
還不能確定誰的存在，可以假裝這裡一切都很好
然而明白地確認了誰來過，我就想換房了...